Dying for Life!
(This blog was originally published by Jean-Marie Jobs on May 11, 2015)
As I consider life, post-Easter, I am drawn to explore the realities and nuances of repentance. When I sin, miss the mark, blow it, violate relationship – I can either look to my bag of excuses, rationalizations, justifications and hurts or I can die. Die to my need to look good, be right, be in control. Die to building my ‘kingdom’ and participate with the Lord in building His Kingdom. Die to my flattering version of myself and live into the beautiful version God created.
Eugene Peterson says it this way: “Repentance is not an emotion. It is not feeling sorry for your sins. It is a decision. It is deciding that you have been wrong in supposing that you could manage your own life and be your own god; it is deciding that you were wrong in thinking that you had, or could get the strength, education and training to make it on your own; it is deciding that you have been told a pack of lies about yourself and your neighbors and your world. And it is deciding that God in Jesus Christ is telling you the truth. Repentance is a realization that what God wants from you and what you want from God are not going to be achieved by doing the same old things, thinking the same old thoughts. Repentance is a decision to follow Jesus Christ and become His pilgrim in the path of peace. Repentance is the most practical of all words and the most practical of all acts. It is a feet-on-the-ground kind of word.”
So often I choose to hide instead. It’s sobering to look at. What would it take to be “Easter new” or “Resurrection New” every day? I imagine it requires death. Daily. Willingly. Powerfully.
As I rewrite my own narrative about dying daily, I open up possibilities for new life in all my relationships. I deepen my trust in Jesus, my faith in the Father and my openness to the Spirit.
Let the NEW begin!